It’s dark in here, take me home
it doesn’t feel safe to be alone
changing the mind about what stress is to the body
takes time, time I don’t feel…Oh no, think positive! here it comes, cascading over….
filters, filters where are the dammed filters?!!!
Lord of all that is, hear my prayer…too late, it’s….it’s … … …
like I have nothing left anymore because breathing is hard the pain is real what is happening to me and I can’t it feels like lies drowning in self awareness bereft of fantasy allowing no pity I’m naked in front the crowd….I’m falling again…failing…falling…failing…
caught breath… breathing, I’m still breathing
I’m still here. Okay. Okay. It’s Okay.
Morbid jokes unfathomable invisibleness 3x the speed of life
rate of relevancy destruction 0 to 60, remembering
you never acquired relevance to loose in the first place, .0002 seconds
grieving retrieving lost parts discovering new truth
making lovers uncomfortable, painful observations
fear of touching sufferings unbearable
techno color inescapable vivid details set in slow motion
for your viewing pleasure and edifications…there’s the anger…there is always the anger….
recognition…it continues, feely feelings…wildness safely observable from edges
Wow…intensely living in the fucking present, eh? They tell me it’s better than death
hard riding, sweating in the cold, hymns of… but at least you still have…
being capable of softness only occurs with handless clocks, paper blocks of time
allowing comforting lies… who knows….anything could happen
burned away leaving hard truth now, core solid
firm bedrock on a bit of a rise
smart place to build a new foundation,
historically speaking, not that you asked…
find me standing…one good leg, mind sharping
adversity sparking like steel against stone
the ground under this foot, I took it, now I own.
Come Universe, watch me! This stone girl, happily still
remembers how to twirl
open mouth head thrown back
doing the two step riding
unbroken unnamed wildly erratic
artwork: from the New Goddess series circa 2009 HA! oils (sold)
<3 thank you for being <3 with love, HA!