It’s my birthday, and I painted this for myself-so there!

'Pay as you go' original oil painting by HMBT 9/27/2008

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close up detail, do you see those legs? I got the feet right too, yippeee for me.
close up detail, do you see those legs? I got the feet right too, yippeee for me.

‘Pay as you go”

24″ x 36″

Back stapled canvas, ready to hang

For Purchase of this work and/or to read more about the work CLICK HERE

This is my birthday present to myself. Today I turn 39, for the first time.

I finished this work today, and I thought of about 4 zillion names to call it…but pay as you go seemed to be the one that was right for me. It’s not perfect, it’s all slightly leaning, tilted, like my mind, my eye, my soul. I like that about myself. Now for many years there are 5 of us. Today, I am a 39 year old woman. Whole of heart, mind, body (almost) and soul. My Mate for Life is in the kitchen cooking me my favorite dinner, my children have hugged me all day and said wonderful things to me, I got to sleep in late and take the day off work too. I love my birthday now, even if it’s simple and quiet, I am with people who love and value me, that is all that matters in this world to me.

From this day forward, I vow to never have a terrible birthday again! I’ve paid my dues, it’s time to fucking party. Tonight it’s appletini’s for everyone..hell have two on me!

I hope your day is wonderful and that you are in a place where you can love yourself first, so that the rest of the world can either not matter, or see you for who you really are, a creature full of love and magick.


This weeks FINE ART AUCTIONS  (go ahead, you want to look at least!)

P.S. read the post below too…it’s my new book, it’s just back from it’s year long tour of the Southern States, to which I was born into and proudly now call my home again.


  1. Dina Kerik
    September 28, 2008

    Heather Love!

    Happy birthday! My mom’s is tomorrow. I’ll be thinking about her ass, missing and cursing her at the same time.

    I LOVE Pay As You Go! The colors are just as fiery as you are, and the idea that we DO pay for our lives as each hour goes by is intriguing.

    I keep telling you that you need to write a book about your life! It would make “Bastard Out Of Carolina” like a fairy tale!

    What doesn’t kill us makes us strong!

    Love and happy, happy day!


  2. badkittyartstudio
    September 28, 2008

    Thank you Dina…I am glad you liked my painting, pay as you go was my first choice…”come as you are” was my second. It just seemed that pay as you go was more fitting, because I live now in a transparent way (thus the see through-ness of my figure) and I don’t need to protect my secrets anymore…there are so few left to tell anymore.
    Happy Birthday to your Big Mamma, and thank you Big Mamma for giving the gift of my friend Dina to this world. I am blessed because of that act, so Happy Birthday Big Mamma!

  3. cynthia
    September 28, 2008

    Happy Belated Birthday, Heather! (((Heather))))

    39 years young – you’ve come a long way baby!

    Sounds like an ideal day for you and I agree, we need to treat ourselves occasionally.

  4. Cedar Lee
    September 28, 2008

    It’s beautiful! I love the big chunky brushstrokes and the glowing color.

    Happy Birthday! 🙂

  5. Kalliope Amorphous
    September 29, 2008

    Glad to hear you had such a beautiful day.
    Appletinis! Oh, how I have loved them! (they were my drink of choice in my New York City years) 🙂

  6. Sibyllae
    September 30, 2008

    Bad Kitty! This is BAD-AZZ beautiful. Extraordinary. Really. I love this one. I love everything about it and the glass like colors— BE-YOU-TIFUL! (PS: Happy belated birthday too!)


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